In Isaiah chapter 6, Isaiah sees the Lord sitting on the throne in His temple. There are angels around Him crying out “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord.” When Isaiah realizes where he is he freaks out. He admits that he is a sinful man and that he lives among sinners. He thinks that he is doomed. One of the angels overhears him and goes to him. He puts a coal on his mouth and he’s like, “Dude, you’re good. You are forgiven and your slate is wiped clean.” Right after that, Isaiah hears the Lord asking about who He will send to minister to the people. Immediately, Isaiah says, “Lord, here I am. Send me” (Isaiah 6:9).
When I read that I was overwhelmed with joy. Isn’t it amazing how the Lord can use us in spite of ourselves. How many times have I said the same exact thing? The Lord doesn’t need a perfect person. He needs someone who is willing to be used by Him, someone who is obedient and ready to surrender their own will. At the beginning of the year I prayed this prayer:
Lord, I don’t know what you are doing. I don’t always understand why things happen, but I know that you said in your word that your ways are not my ways and your thoughts are not my thoughts. Despite all the wrong that I’ve done and despite the fact that I am not worthy to be called yours, you love me. I know that you have plans for my life so Father strengthen my faith so that it will be greater than my fear…and God here I am. Send me.