I haven’t made time for this blog in a long time and I regret it. Lately I’ve been under attack in so many areas of my life that I’ve taken my eyes and focus off the very one that serves as my everything. I know I need the Lord, but unfortunately my time with Him has suffered. This morning, I woke up to the sound of Pastor Kevin Furtick on T.V. He was talking about becoming a graduate of gratitude. In the kindergarten level, we’re grateful for what we have. By high school, we are grateful even though we may endure a trial or two. As a college grad, we see the blessing in the storm. We accept the Lord’s invitation to dine “in the presence of our enemies.” We trust Him so much that we know He’s working ALL things for our good.
One of the lessons that I constantly discuss with my girls is the importance of understanding purpose. It’s easier to make good choices when we understand and focus on our purpose. There’s a song by Hillsong United that says, “I will call upon your name, and keep my eyes above the waves. When oceans rise, my soul will rest in your embrace, for I am yours and you are mine.”
Oh, how difficult it is to keep my eyes above the waves! The trick is to spend time with the Lord daily, not just when we find ourselves surrounded by stormy waters and we need a life line because time is what builds relationships. When I spend time in His presence every day I am reminded of how much He loves me. I am reminded of my purpose and then I have peace so…. when the storms of life blow relentless winds of pain and the waves rise above my head I am already focused because I know that greater is He that is in me than He that is in this world.
I must keep reminding myself early in the morning before I do anything else that I am a servant of the Lord before I am anything else. Before I am a wife, before I am a mother, before I am a teacher, and before I am a student, I am a servant of Christ. That’s who I am and my purpose comes from that role first. It drives the rest of my roles so my time with the Lord is of the utmost importance. I can’t do life without Him, and when I try I am constantly overwhelmed by stress. Then, when something big finally does come, I can’t keep my eyes on Him because they weren’t on Him to begin with.
So here I go again, just like an Israelite. Lord, I messed up again and I forgot about how important our time is. Forgive me and let’s start anew so I can focus my eyes on you and keep them there. My heart’s desire is to maintain an attitude of gratitude in ALL things.